Lest Glenn Joseph Downey’s entry into this world was much anticipated. My little girl was going to be a Mom and *gasp* I was going to be a Grandma. It was something that I was unable to really comprehend because I’ve never been a Grandma before. Now however I know what it is like to be a Grandma and it is the best thing I have ever been. I now know what it means when someone says they fell in love with a newborn the minute they laid eyes on the little bundle of wrinkly, red, crying human being. He had big eyes, a lot of hair, a scrunched up face and extra bits-was expecting a girl since we have loads of them in the family. He was absolutely beautiful. He will be 6 months old on the 22nd of September and I cry every time I hold him because he is Grandma’s little man. He is amazing, impatient, lovable, happy, stubborn and alot like his Mom in some things but soooo not like his Mom in others. Can’t wait to see what he does next.
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Completeness when I see you,
when you are near.
Completeness when I see you, when you are near. The need to put my arms around you and hold you to my heart so that the pain will ease. An analgesic to soothe the aches that constantly beat at me until I see you again even knowing that I will never be able to hold you as nothing more than a friend. You make my heart glad, my soul whole and free. The littlest glance, gentle touch or even a playful slap in the ass that makes my clit throb with want. What a fun few hours that was until the feeling became a memory. I play at living, never really involved nor seeing. The only thing keeping me here in this city is my small family. I would gladly tuck my tail between my legs and return to Ontario just so that I can drown out the thought of you that invades my mind and soul each day. No one comes close to you in my dreams or in my life and I will always love you this I know. I am a half heart and I wish you knew me and felt the same.
If I sob as my heart dictates will it echo back thru the years of my life before rebounding thru my soul flashing my lonely life on a movie screen for all to see. A black and white parody of life as I know it. A comedy of errors, a Shakespearean sonnet of love, heartache and dreams pulled asunder. Being alone with myself I had discovered all of the idiosyncrasies that make up my person. I know loneliness, quiet, peace of mind yet since I met you and learned that there such a thing as love at first sight I cannot find that place within me that holds the ease I found with myself all those years ago. There is no more peace, happiness with the quiet, or spark that lights up my morning so that I may see all the good, the hidden little bits of life that made my eyes restlessly search each nook and cranny that I found bringing a smile to my face at this new thing I had found. There is no one to share the joy I had found with life. No one to share soft, slow, toe curling kisses with. I cannot love another because my love, my body, my soul was yours, made for you to love and it always leaves me with nothing to give anyone else.
Beat on my chest as you would beat on an empty oil drum
Feel the echo vibrate through me. No life. No feeling.
I look out on this world as a stranger would. Looking for a place to blend in, to be not so visible. Not so unusual.
I have no heart to give anymore it is lying in pieces around my feet as if it had been a jigsaw puzzle tossed into the air and left to deal with the consequences of the cement it crashed and splintered on.
Hiding myself behind the pieces, which side should you match, can you put me back together
There is no string to pull on that will bring all of the pieces together right side up.
I am hollow, a tinman without a heart beating in my chest as proof that I am alive
Love, pain, fear and hope
Proof she was alive
Proof that she loved
The answer is yes
The question did not matter
Yup I decided I wanted to write about the common fork. It’s an interesting utensil to say the least and very diverse. It can have 2 prongs, 3 or even 4. You can have one with a really long handle and 2 tines so you can stab and turn meat on the BBQ without burning your fingers or you can have a 4 pronger if you’re one of those people who wants to make sure that you keep your food in one spot while it is travelling towards your mouth. I personally would rather use a spoon and knife.
I know it sounds very juvenile but you know something I’m not getting any younger and I just don’t have time to chase my food around my plate because it doesn’t want to stay on my fork. I never have to re-scoop food when I use a spoon. Yes eating spaghetti would be challenging but I don’t eat it all that often and if I feel the need for a bowl or plate of Spaghetti Bolognese then I can always use my fingers, problem solved.
For those of you who don’t know the word ‘fork’ comes from the Latin furca which means pitchfork. The ancient Greeks used the fork as a serving utensil and yes according to Wikipedia it also has an honourable mention in the Hebrew Bible, in the book of 1 Samuel 2:13. The people of the Roman Empire couldn’t decide whether to make their forks out of bronze or silver and they used the fork depending on local customs, social class and the nature of food they were eating for that meal. Those who resided in Western Europe adopted the use of the fork around the 16th century when someone decided that etiquette dictated that people use forks, even the ancients had their own Emily Post. Sounds like a good reason not to eat with a spoon or your fingers to me, not. Members of the aristocracy thought it was cool to use 2 knives at meals which is probably why they took to the use of the fork quite happily I know it would’ve gotten me to eat slower so I don’t slice anything important while trying to get food into my mouth and the knife back out again. They were however smart enough to eat soup and broth with a spoon. One point for them.
It wasn’t until around 972 that the fork began its valiant trek west to where else Western Europe. We can thank 2 adventurous women, the Empress Theophanu who married good ole Otto II in 972 and then Dogaressa Teodora Anna Dukaina Selvo who married the Doge of Venice Domenico Selvo in 1072 for driving home the point forks rule. Then of course the rest of Italy took up the cause of the fork in the 11th century after all if the Doge of Venice was eating with a fork then by god the rest of us will, Viva la fork! So in the manner of today’s rock stars the humble fork took the rest of Italy by storm. It was number 20 on the hit parade in the 14th century and by 1600 after roughly 200yrs on the charts the merchant and upper classes took up the forks cause shooting it to number one where it has remained ever since. The Italians were very protective of their forks however and refused to share so it you were invited to supper heaven help you if you didn’t bring your own utensils. Would you believe that the guests went so far as to carry their utensils out on their dinner date in a box called a cadena and to really ingrain this custom in society Catherine de’Medici, being the wonderful and caring person that she was shared this wonderful custom with the French.
The beauty of the fork and its practical usages were frowned upon as an unmanly Italian affectation by the stubborn inhabitants of northern Europe. Some writers of the Catholic Church expressly disapproved of its use, seeing it as “excessive delicacy”: “God in his wisdom provided man with natural forks – his fingers. There it is an insult to Him to substitute artificial metallic forks for them when eating. Wish they would’ve spent more time contemplating the usage and design of the fork and less time meddling in the lives of people….sorry I digress. The curved fork that is used in most parts of the world today was developed in Germany in the mid 18th century. The Germans sure know how to jump in with both feet when they decide they like something. Wonder how long it would’ve taken someone else to think about curving the tines. Go Germany! They sure know how to make good stuff.
We have now moved in to 18th Century where European adults are eating with the fork while their children are poking each other with theirs since that is a hell of a lot more fun when you’re 5 than using it for eating. Great Britain has now decided to give the fork the good ole college try. There is however some difference of opinion as to when forks really caught on in England, France and Sweden. Some say it was the 18th century but some say the early 17th century. I’ll leave it up to you to decide. Whichever one it is the 4 tine design reared its practical head in the early 19th.
So now that you’ve are all experts on the history of the fork I think we should contemplate the practicality of the fork. I know what you’re thinking I mean I’ve thought of this myself. What else would we use you ask well Asia has survived for thousands of years using their fingers and chopsticks. While others use bread with their fingers for scooping food off of a plate. It’s a little cleaner that using your fingers straight up that is for sure. A fork is cool but it leaks big time. Rice falls off between the tines. Soups don’t go there because there isn’t a soup thick enough to eat with a fork. If it’s thick it’s a stew and bread ends up going in the bowl to get the gravy that is left so eat with the bread and save the fork for another day. What really gets me aside from why we decided it was better to eat with a fork than a spoon is why there are so many frigging forks. I mean seriously folks do you know how many forks someone took the time over the years to make just so you don’t know which one to use when you sit down to eat.
You’re not going to believe all of this:
1. Asparagus fork
2. Beef fork – A fork used for picking up very thin slices of meat. This fork is shaped like a regular fork, but it is slightly bigger and the tines are curved outward. The curves are used for piercing the thin sliced beef.
3. Berry fork
4. Carving fork – A two-pronged fork used to hold meat steady while it is being carved. They are often sold with carving knives or slices as part of a carving set. Picture a short BBQ fork with a knife.
5. Cheese fork
6. Chip fork – yup you are reading this right. It is a 2-pronged fork, usually made out of sterile wood (though increasingly of plastic), specifically designed for the eating of chips (or french fries)
7. Cocktail fork – A small fork resembling a trident, used for spearing cocktail garnishes such as olives.
8. Cold meat fork
9. Crab fork – A short, sharp and narrow three-pronged or two-pronged fork designed to easily extract meat when consuming cooked crab.
10. Dessert fork (alternatively, pudding fork/cake fork in Great Britain)
Any of several different special types of forks designed to eat desserts, such as a pastry fork. They usually have only three tines and are smaller than standard dinner forks. The leftmost tine may be widened so as to provide an edge with which to cut (though it is never sharpened).
11. Dinner fork
12. Fish fork
13. Fondue fork – looks like a really short BBQ for but I wouldn’t want to try turning a steak with it. Now the official description is a narrow fork, usually having two tines, long shaft and an insulating handle, typically of wood, for dipping bread into a pot containing sauce
14. Fruit salad fork
15. Ice cream fork – good lord I’m a barbarian I use a spoon.
16. Knork – I want one of these and it’s just because it has a cool name. If you are wondering what it is well it’s a utensil combining the characteristics of a knife and a fork.
17. Lunch fork
18. Meat fork
19. Olive fork
20. Oyster fork
21. Pastry fork
22. Pickle fork – get this… it’s a long handled fork used for extracting pickles from a jar, or an alternative name for a ball joint separator tool used to unseat a ball joint.
23. Pie fork
24. Pitchfork
25. Relish fork
26. Salad fork – Similar to a regular fork, but may be shorter, or have one of the outer tines shaped differently. Often, a “salad fork” in the silverware service of some restaurants (especially chains) may be simply a second fork; conversely, some restaurants may omit it, offering only one fork in their service.
27. Sporf – A utensil combining characteristics of a spoon, a fork and a knife. I think someone was bored when they came up with this one.
28. Spork – A utensil combining characteristics of a spoon and a fork
29. Tea fork
30. Toasting fork – see description of BBQ fork. A fork, usually having two tines, very long metal shaft and sometimes an insulating handle, for toasting food over coals or an open flame
Then someone got really bored and came up with you guessed it novelty forks
Spaghetti fork
31. Extension Fork – A long-tined fork with a telescopic handle, allowing for its extension or contraction.
32. And finally we have the Spaghetti fork – A fork with a metal shaft loosely fitted inside a hollow plastic handle. The shaft protrudes through the top of the handle, ending in a bend that allows the metal part of the fork to be easily rotated with one hand while the other hand is holding the plastic handle. This supposedly allows spaghetti to be easily wound onto the tines. Electric variations of this fork have become more prevalent in modern times.
Now either I’m missing something or there really is a reason to have 32 different forks to jab, turn, poke, hold, cut, or dig food out of something. Personally, I think some rich person a couple hundred years ago decided that they wanted to do something different for a dinner party they were having in 2 weeks so they called the local silversmith and told them to invent an instrument to eat the berries that were for dessert at their dinner party. The silversmith who thought the rich person was an idiot since they could just eat the berries with their fingers like everyone else just took the BBQ fork he had in his shed and just made a shorter version. The rich person was happy and of course his stupid friends had to play an unnecessary game of one-upmanship which resulted in 32 kinds of fork that only rich people have or know when to use.
The lowly fork…friend or foe.
Now before I start in on my blog entry and my issue with it here is a definition of phobia. Phobia: a thing about something, anxiety, exaggerated reaction, fear, fixation, fixed idea, hang-up, insanity, mania, neurosis, obsession, phobia, preoccupation, repression.
Now for those of you who may not have read previous entries in my blog I am a lesbian. Yes that is what I said. I love women. Therefore I have an issue with homophobia and what it does to my community, as well as the Church’s beliefs and why they believe what they do.
Notice I did not say I hate homophobic people because I don’t. I do not understand how someone can hate what they know nothing about. I also did not say I hated the Church. I am a lapsed Catholic because being tolerated in my own Church did not sit well with me I just don’t like the beliefs that deprive people of a full, loving life that is equal to everyone else’s.
I found a great website http://www.religioustolerance.org/hom_bibx.htm while trawling the net today. It was interesting reading that I think everyone should browse through. As I’ve stated regardless of who you are you must conquer your fear, hate, dislike and mistreatment of that which you do not know or understand. Therefore I am leading by example and I read the information provided on this site and others so that I may understand why others do not think I am entitled to be as equal as they are and that I will spend the after life in hell. I’m going to include some of it here so that you may learn as well.
Now Fundamentalist Christians typically believe the Bible is true without the possibility of error. Fundamentalists interpret most biblical passages literally. They view the Bible as the Word of God fully applicable to present day situations.
Many Fundamentalist believe the sexual act is a sin when defined by the act itself so therefore all homosexual activity is sinful regardless of the relationship between the people involved. Heterosexual activity is not a sin if done within a marriage so all of you living together without a marriage license beware they may come knocking on your door next. According to them many biblical passages condemn all forms of homosexual behaviours and that God destroyed Sodom and its inhabitants because of their homosexual activity. There is also no committed, consensual same-sex relationships described in the Bible. Which is kind of funny since there are 3 mentioned: Ruth and Naomi, David and Jonathan, Daniel and Ashpenaz. “
Homosexuality is described in the Bible but there is no mention of sexual orientation-true point. If such a thing as sexual orientation existed it would’ve been mentioned in the bible. “Some fundamentalists interpret 1 Corinthians 6:11, as stating that if gays and lesbians are truly saved, God will remove their homosexual feelings and convert them to a heterosexual orientation. Thus, no individuals who continue to engage in homosexual activities have actually been saved; all are destined for Hell after death.” Would you believe some Fundamentalists think we can change our sexual orientation through counselling and prayer and have even gone so far as to spend and stupid amount of money in the media emphasizing that we can leave our homosexual lifestyle behind. I must admit I laughed uproariously at this last as I can no more change my biological make up than I can change my eye color.
Now mainline Christian conclusions are as follows: ”A serious problem facing most mainline denominations is that the conservative/liberal split is reflected in the membership of their own congregations. Within each mainline faith group, there is a wide range of belief on all social and theological topics, from abortion access to the virgin birth. The larger mainline denominations have spawned internal, conservative, reform movements which are attempting to restore church teaching, belief and practices to those of earlier times. They seek to prevent sexually active gays and lesbians from being considered for ordination, and to prevent the church from holding homosexual union or commitment ceremonies for gay and lesbian couples. Meanwhile, liberals within these same denominations — often including central leadership in the denomination — are fighting for change. For the foreseeable future, mainline denominations will undoubtedly remain split over the homosexual issue, with one part of their membership following conservative Christian beliefs and the rest following liberal beliefs.”
And for the rest of us who are a little more liberal than others: “Religious liberals generally do not view the Bible as inerrant. They see it as a collection of writings by various authors, each of whom was promoting their own religious beliefs. Thus, biblical passages describe how Jewish and early Christian societies viewed various matters. They may or may not reflect the will of God. Passages relating to the genocide of whole peoples, the oppression of women and slavery are certainly not in accordance with the wishes of God.”
Some religious liberals argue one or more of the following points: The English versions of the Bible are translations from other language texts. The definitions, usages, etc., have been filtered through the mind-set and prejudices of the people who translated those texts. In order to fully understand the precise meaning of the passages of the Bible you must carefully examine the original texts from the point of view of the ancient Israeli and early Christian societies-kind of hard to do 2,000yrs after the fact. Most liberals believe that some but not all sexual acts are sinful. It depends mainly on the relationship, not on the act itself. Liberals view manipulative, dominating, coercive, under age and/or unsafe sex is sinful. Safe heterosexual or homosexual sex within a truly consenting and committed relationship is not sinful. “Author Chris Levan sees this reflected in the Bible. He writes: “The best response that scripture can give with regard to homosexuality is the declaration that our Creator is very often not concerned about the ‘who’ of relationship so much as the ‘how.’ It simply asks if the relationship is functioning according to principles of justice and dignity? Does the partnership demonstrate mutual trust and compassion? If so, it is blessed by God.” The original passages in the Hebrew Scriptures usually do not refer to homosexual acts in general, but to specific immoral behaviours, such as rape, ritual sex in Pagan temples and prostitution.”
Anytime a major ethical conflict crops up in North America it is usually resolved first among the religious liberals and last among religious conservatives. No surprise there at all as far as I can see. This pattern has been observed during the fight for equal rights for women, the right for women to vote, ending racial segregation, and legalizing interracial marriage. Our current hot topics under review for resolution the same way in the church are abortion access and funding, physician assisted suicide and equal rights for the GLBT community.
The “gay agenda” includes:
protection from hate crimes based on sexual orientation; an end to discrimination in employment and accommodations (housing); the right to marry or enter into civil unions; the right to be accepted as church members; the right to be considered for ordination, etc.
“Most conservative Christians are firmly in favour of maintaining the status quo; many liberal Christians feel that ethical considerations require equal rights for homosexuals both within and outside of the church.”
It’s true that if you take the time to read the Bible you will see little about homosexual feelings just like you will see nothing about sexual orientation. There was no such thing as sexual orientation during Biblical times because it is a mostly western concept which came into being in the late 19th century. Modern medical science, i.e., psychologists, psychiatrists, etc., didn’t really start seriously investigating sexual orientation until the middle of the 20th century. “Of the many hundreds of Jesus’ instructions and prohibitions recorded in the gospels, few if any have a sexual component and none deal with homosexuality. Most religious liberals agree with the main mental health associations. Sexual orientation is determined before school age, and is perhaps determined genetically at conception. It cannot be changed through prayer, religious conversion, reparative therapy, aversion therapy or counselling, any more than a person can change their race or gender. I wonder how heterosexual people would feel if they were suddenly a minority and the majority of the population was heterophobic. Oooh wouldn’t that be interesting.
A lot of people in this world are homophobic. Some because of their religious beliefs while others because they themselves are homosexual and are afraid to be who they are for varying reasons-inner homophobia. A good portion of the rest of this slightly larger than I would like group learn it while imbibing mother’s milk again for whatever reason but mostly because of the fear and ignorance of what they do not understand.
God is supposed to be a loving, benevolent, caring being that was he message I learned in Sunday school. Vengeance is not a part of any definition I found in the dictionary for these words. So my question is who decided that the people of my community will spend the after-life in Hell and not in heaven like everyone else just because they love someone who is the same sex as they are? I know it wasn’t the subject of any of those stories we ever talked about in Sunday School.
As of May 2010, 76 countries criminalize consensual sexual acts between adults of the same sex. They are punishable by death in seven countries:
Iran has executed more than 4,000 people charged with homosexual acts since 1979.
Mauritania
Saudia Arabia: Although the maximum punishment for homosexuality is execution, the government tends to use other punishments (fines, prison sentences, and whipping), unless it feels that homosexuals have challenged state authority by engaging in LGBT social movements.
Sudan, Nigeria, Yemen, and Somalia round out this distinguished group.
Countries where homosexuality is criminalized but not punished by death, by region, include:
Africa: Algeria, Angola, Botswana, Burundi, Cameroon, Comoros, Egypt, Eritrea, Ethiopia, Gambia, Ghana, Guinea, Kenya,Lesotho, Liberia, Libya, Malawi, Mauritius, Morocco, Mozambique, Namibia, Nigeria (death penalty in some states), São Tomé and Príncipe, Senegal, Seychelles, Sierra Leone, Somalia (death penalty in some states), Swaziland, Tanzania, Togo, Tunisia, Uganda, Zambia, Zimbabwe.
Asia: Afghanistan, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Brunei, Burma, Kuwait, Lebanon, Malaysia, Maldives, Oman, Pakistan, Qatar,Singapore, Sri Lanka, Syria, Turkmenistan, United Arab Emirate, Uzbekistan, Gaza Strip under Palestinian Authority, Turkish Republic of Northern Cyprus (internationally unrecognised).
Latin America and the Caribbean: Antigua and Barbuda, Barbados, Belize, Dominica, Grenada, Guyana, Jamaica, St Kitts & Nevis, St Lucia, St Vincent & the Grenadines, Trinidad and Tobago
Oceania: Kiribati, Nauru, Palau, Papua New Guinea, Samoa, Solomon Islands, Tonga, Tuvalu, Cook Islands
Afghanistan, where such acts remain punishable with fines and a prison sentence, dropped the death penalty after the fall of the Taliban in 2001, who had mandated it from 1996. India criminalized homosexuality until June 2, 2009, when the High Court of Delhi declared section 377 of the Indian Penal Code invalid.
Jamaica has some of the toughest sodomy laws in the world, with homosexual activity carrying a 10-year jail sentence.
International human rights organizations such as Human Rights Watch and Amnesty International condemn laws that make homosexual relations between consenting adults a crime. Since 1994, the United Nations Human Rights Committee has also ruled that such laws violated the right to privacy guaranteed in the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and the International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights.
Has anyone noticed the underlying connection among the countries that are listed above and how they deal with homosexuality?
Another bit of information I forgot to add…”Other than the reference to un-described sins the men of Sodom committed. Leviticus is the only source for the church’s teaching on male homosexuality. Two verses, forty-five words, out of nearly a thousand pages. Female homosexuality is not mentioned at all in the Bible.” Now isn’t that interesting? It sure sounds like there is a lot of obsession, neurosis and preoccupation in some people’s heads that to be revised.
Just saying
Why would someone write a blog entry about being fifty, fluffy and female you ask? Well it wouldn’t necessarily be interesting to anyone but I like the idea especially when you add being lesbian, butch with a wider than wanted streak of femme. All of these impact me and my life in some ways to the good and in others not so good.
On the good side I have learned many lessons that help me get through life with as little fuss, muss and bother. I know that “Don’t Stress the Small Stuff” is more than just a book title it is a very simple way of life that helps reduce your blood pressure, allows you to enjoy stopping and smelling the roses while enjoying each day as it is presents to you. Granted there are times when you can’t help but let the small stuff smack you upside the head but after a while you can get it under control quickly letting you get on with your life. I suppose you could call it learning how to experience that one perfect moment in time where you wish you could live forever. When you don’t fret about the day before and only plan for the day ahead. Where all is at it should be. I’m not saying that everyone will learn this by the time they are 50 but some of us can and the rest of us will eventually, hopefully.
On the bad side ageism is something we have to contend with. The common thought among many is that the older you get the less desirable you become. There are names for someone who has reached the venerable age of 50 and beyond:aged; old; elderly, geriatric, senile; matronly, anile; in years; ripe, mellow, run to seed, declining, waning, past one’s prime; gray, gray-headed; hoar, hoary; venerable, time-worn, antiquated, passe, effete, decrepit, superannuated; advanced in life, advanced in years; stricken in years; wrinkled, long in the tooth, marked with the crow’s foot; having one foot in the grave; doting (imbecile); like the last of pea time., older, elder, oldest, eldest; senior; firstborn; ichiban, ichiro [Japanese]., turned of, years old; of a certain age, no spring chicken, old as Methuselah; ancestral; patriarchal (ancient); gerontic. Did anyone see sexy, desirable, worth fighting for, needed capable of loving. I know I didn’t.
It doesn’t seem to matter these days that what is inside of a person is exactly the same at 20 as 50 when it comes to wanting to love, desire and cherish someone. My knees may ache more at 50 than 20. I may get tired a little easier than I use to but I still enjoy physical activities, stimulating conversation, learning, enjoying the company of someone I love, as well as others. Loving someone physically may be a little less enthusiastic and might not last all night long but it still contains all the emotion, intensity and emotion whether you are 50 or 30.
Physical appearance can also be a drawback when it comes to establishing relationships. Perfection of appearance to some is required by some in a mate, boy/girlfriend, wife, husband, etc., in others not so much. Which means you may eventually find someone to overlook the extra pounds that you packed in the knapsack around your middle, ass, and other places you didn’t know you could pack unwanted weight. Guess what some of the labels are for people who are a little larger than what good health and the marketing industry have taught us is acceptable. Here they are: beefy, big, blimp, bovine, brawny, broad, bulging,bulky, bull, burly, butterball, chunky, corpulent, distended, dumpy, elephantine, fleshy,gargantuan, gross, heavy, heavyset, hefty, husky, inflated, jelly-belly, lard, large, meaty,obese, oversize, paunchy, plump, plumpish,ponderous, porcine, portly, potbellied, pudgy, roly-poly, rotund, solid, stout, swollen, thickset, weighty, whalelike
Again do any of you see, desirable, worth learning who they are, marriageable, relationship material, loving, caring sexy anywhere in this list? Can’t say I see any of them either. Combine that with being 50 and holy shit you might as well join a convent. You’d probably find more action there than you would in a downtown gay/lesbian bar-sorry if someone finds this comment offensive.
So being fifty, fluffy and female can and does have it’s drawbacks, more than some of us would like. I personally hate them because learning how to spend the rest of my life alone except for my daughter and her family is something I find unacceptable especially when it means forfeiting a long held dream of loving someone deeply enough that I want to spend my life with them.
We in the LGBT community do ourselves a disservice as well according to some of us. Yes we label ourselves just like society labels those of us who aren’t good enough to grace the cover of Elle, Maxim and any other glossy magazine or commercial floating around in society. I mean we have butch, femme, tops, bottoms, sapphic, dyke, twink, queer, queen, lesbo, poof, fruit, bull dyke, stone, etc. Here’s what Wikipedia has to say:
- Bulldyke or Bull dyke or Bulldiker or Bulldiger (also, earlier, Bulldagger) – more likely to present as butch
- Baby dyke – a young, immature or recently out lesbian. Sometimes used in a pejorative sense within the LGBT community to refer to a lesbian who attempts to appear butch unsuccessfully.[10]
- Femme dyke – a lesbian who presents in an (often stylized) traditionally feminine way.
- ‘Frisco dyke – a queer woman who hails from, lives in, or espouses aesthetics / ideologies congruent with those popular among dykes in the San Francisco Bay Area.
- Lipstick dyke – variation on the pop-culture term “lipstick lesbian“. Also known as a “doily dyke.”
- Trans dyke – Transsexual or Transgender woman who romantically and/or sexually prefers females.
- Bear dyke – a lesbian of especially large build and/or physical prowess.
- Bi-Dyke or Byke – an identity used in a variety of ways, including by some bisexual women who feel more attracted to women than to men or by lesbian or dyke-identified women who acknowledge some sexual or emotional affection for men.[11] Also used by some women who identify as being primarily attracted to genderqueer individuals.
